My Creative Block

So all this late night nursing gives me time to think. But the difference between late night thinking and normal day time thinking is you're half asleep at night, which allows you to think in a different way. Sort of misted over and yet clearer all at the same time. Anyway, during said event I figured out my creative block. I've always been creative, yet everything I do ends up too safe. Like I'd never make anything too bold or wacky because of the looks I'd know I'd recieve. And THAT'S my block. I DO care what other people think. WTH? How'd that happen? But if there's ever a time to stop caring about how people view me it's now because of all the great people I have in my life, and these people just might give me funny looks but they won't change their perception of me. I'm not saying I'm going to go all crazy. I'm just saying that Yes I will wear what I want and Yes I will make a neon quilt if I feel like it. So there.

Now, you'll excuse me, I have a couple hard boiled eggs to eat.

Here's the problem...

Alright All, I've been watching House Hunters like crazy and it's so much fun because it gets me motivated to some day own a home of our own. I know we have a few steps to go to get there, but it'll happen. We don't have any rich relatives to help us, or any type of savings or trust funds from being a kid. Neither of us has been to college (more about that later), but both of us are hard workers, and we have to build up/fix our credit. BUT it can happen and it is happening. Anyway, here's the problem living in Durango. THIS is the type of house you can buy here for $150,000....

Totally disappointing. Now, Durango is BEAUTIFUL. Huge mountains (duh, Rockies...), super blue sky, gorgeous seasons (Winter's a little TOO long for me, though), and it's a decent sized town. And THAT'S why it's so expensive to live here. THAT'S why you have to live in a trailer or an apartment if you aren't uber rich. Also, Durango is at least 500 miles from ANYWHERE so if you're going to live here of course your going to pay the cost because you have to, because all around us is either desolate desert or desolate forest.

Ok, back to House Hunters....

House Hunters is awesome because they show you different places of the country and also gives you a glimpse of what you can get for your money in those areas. Now, keep in mind that I've never been East of Colorado, so I don't know what I'm talking about. But this morning I was watching one where a family was relocating from Georgia to Nashville, TN, and I personally am offended that Durango can get away with selling run-down trailers when you can live in a beautiful area for less. Example: THIS is what $150,000 can get you in the Nashville area...

 

These houses also aren't EVEN $150,000! They're all around $100,000. LAME! They're totally cute! Not huge (I've NEVER wanted a huge house, too much work, and not at all intimate. I'd rather it be super cool and perfect and too big.) But they are all 2 or 3 bedrooms, with 2+ baths. I'm so over Durango.

Really the only reason I'm still here is my mom, and Zack. Now, Zack I might be able to convince to move somewhere. I think his main reason for not wanting to move is he's already so established here. Everyone knows him, I think he's sort of afraid to be the new kid. But my mom is a different story. She's a self-proclaimed matriarch. She'd be so mad if we moved. Especially now that we have Greyson. But what am I supposed to do, live somewhere I'm not really into for the rest of my life because it's where my mom is? People grow up and move away from home. My mom moved away from her mom when we moved here. God forbid that I'm 40 before I get the guts to move away from my mom. That's another 20 years of mediocre-ness. I'm not into it. I want to GO. I guess I need to make myself a motivation board or something so I don't lose this steam. That's my problem too. I get all amped up about something (i.e. girlFriday, school, different projects) and then I lose my steam. I don't lose interest in it, I just get lazy. I have to work on that. Maybe we need to save as much money as possible for the next 2 years and see where we are. Maybe I need to by hypnotized to NOT spend money. I'm terrible with "things". I love "things". And that's a problem. In fact I need to get rid of a lot of my "things". I'm selling some stuff on ebay as we speak actually. Ok enough of my tangent. Point is, Durango's ripping us off and I won't stand for it anymore. We're paying in rent what we would be paying on a house payment somewhere else. Sucks. I want out.

So I need ideas! Where would you move if you could move anywhere???

Original Mrs. M.

Ok, just a short post to say I changed my blog address from o-livejuice to originalmrsm.blogspot.com. Note: the header change, too!


P.S. Look what else I found I can do!


P.S.S. You have to make these cookies! TheGirlWhoAteEverything.blogspot.com
And they come out as pretty as they are yummy!

Halloween!

So I know it's a little early for a Happy Halloween button but I can't help it! I'm excited! We didn't do Halloween last year because our big "go-out-and-drink" plans couldn't happen because I had just found out we were pregnant! Which is totally ok. But it just means I'm twice as excited for this year AND  we have a little someone to dress up! Zack thought I was crazy for wanting to get Greyson a costume since he won't remember it. But let's face it ladies, the first couple years of holidays are for us mommas, right? It's an excuse to make the cutest babies ever even more cute and take tons of pictures. Anyway this year I think the plan is to hang out with our friends and their kiddo... I think I already wrote what Greyson was going to be - Dale Jr.... Not my first choice in costume but we already have the outfit and I have a coordinating outfit too. Plus were so BROKE it's not even funny. I still have girl Friday in the works but I'm also on the lookout for something part-time where I can bring the baby. There was an ad in the paper yesterday about a nanny but they haven't called me back yet :( and today there's an ad that I should call on. Wish me luck!

And have you noticed I went crazy on my blog?? I never knew you could add blinkies and buttons to blogs, honestly I never knew what they were. And thanks to Amy for finally writing/updating her blog for giving me the idea! So now that it's all revamped I'm into blogging again. It's amazing what a fresh coat of paint can inspire. I learned about photobucket and about the character map < that's how I made the little swirly things in my blog header. You just go to the "Search" area on your computer and type in character map and it pulls up all sorts of symbols!

Speaking of "fresh coats of paint", we're swapping Greyson's room with the computer room. The computer room was the bigger room and we thought we had more stuff than Greyson but we were wrong. This kid's stuff has taken over the house and he can't even crawl yet! So anyway we're giving him the bigger room. I'm excited to re-organize and re-arrange everything. We actually probably won't paint it though. Who knows how long we'll live here? I wish we owned a home... My personal goal is to own some type of a home before Greyson's 10.... Ten years suddenly doesn't seem like that much time.

P.S. If you read my blog, please follow it! :( I only have 3 technical followers but I know there's more than that who read this. Because I have a stat counter... ;) Oh and if Valen reads this, I'm surprised you don't have a blog! You're an awesome writer and I know you have stuff to say. And Danielle, does Tony have a blog? He could have one where he can debut his photography! All you people who are reading this you need a blog too so I can follow it!! ♥

I know we all "remember" but try to REMEMBER

So gosh I guess it's been 9 years since all of this. I still ws living in Valley Center, CA and I was in 8th grade. I don't even think my alarm had gone off to wake up for school yet and my mom comes bursting in my room in all her tact and softness and says "A plane just crashed into the World Trade Centers!" I didn't even know what a "World Trade Center" was. Then a few minutes later she comes in and says "Another plane just crashed into the other one!" or something like that. She was hearing it on the radio. Then I remember watching CNN in Mr. Marx's class. Not many of the teachers would turn on CNN for us, but Mr. Marx was our history teacher and he thought it was important for us to see it, and I'm glad he let us.

It's totally weird that my son won't remember this. Maybe it's how our moms and dads and grandmas and grandpas feel about us not being able to remember Pearl Harbor. I know what happened, but I'll never feel the way they felt, and I'm sure the same will go for my son. And you never know how much something affected you until it's thrown in your face again. I'm a perfect example.What did little, 14 year old me living in perfect VC care about thousands of people thousands of miles away?  

Well if I didn't care then, I sure care now. I just send out loving thoughts to everyone today and especially people who were directly affected by this very sad and moving day. That is to say everyone.


Edit: I've just been watching some more 9/11 videos. And could you imagine not being able to run fast enough? Like in dreams when you just can't make your legs move like you want them to?

Obsessed the movie... and with TV

Have you seen that movie? Obsessed with Ali Larter and Beyonce? It wasn't that great of a movie, but had a Crush feeling to it. Anyway, it was just on Starz and Ali Larter plays this crazy woman who has delusions of being with another man who happens to be Beyonce's husband. I don't know about you but if I was put in that situation where some crazy woman was trying to invade upon my family, I would totally go Beyonce on her and crush her with my chandelier. Beyonce kicked butt there at the end.

Speaking of tough female characters to idolize, what about Gemma and Tara from Sons of Anarchy?

I don't know if I could ever be THAT tough but I still think they're cool. Sons sort of re-romanticizes the whole being in love with a bad boy thing. It makes being a part of a gun-running, felony-laced, hard-core-partying, murdering, band of hooligans who have more groups of enemies then they can count on all their toes and fingers combined seem awesomely romantic. Even safe, secure, little ol' me might be tempted to hop on a motorcyle with a gruffion if such a gang existed. But they do lead a very serious life. I think the only time I saw Tara and Gemma have fun was when the shot up the porn star's car. Does anyone else watch this show? It's Season 3 right now and honestly I probably wouldn't've started watching if it wasn't for Zack, but dammit he's got me into it too. It's a pretty good show, they do a good job. But hey, it's Hollywood babe.

Here's a trailer for Sons...

Oh and this season hits home for me especially because Jax Teller's baby got kidnapped last season and their trying to find him this season, and I'm super curious as to what Tara and Gemma is going to do to help, because when it comes to my son I know I would do anything to keep him safe. And I wonder if Jax's ex-wife will ever get back in the picture. That might be interesting drama. She may have left for the 2nd season so she could play the italian mom on Desperate Housewives last year, so maybe she'll be back in Sons this year.

Anyway, just had to share some spur-of-the-moment thoughts...
Love!

How Did I Get So Lucky?

Month THREE is well under way with being a mom. Greyson is almost 10 weeks old already, and he's just awesome. He sleeps most of the night - only getting up 2x to eat and/or for a change. He rarely cries - only when he's hungry or wants to change position. AND he's super cute! I can't get over it! He also looks like a complete boy. I say this as a mom and as a by-stander with absolute modesty: He's a good lookin' kid. Even with a trail of spit-up down his shirt....

Also I'm surprised by how easy it was to transition into being grossed out. I guess when you love something you just do it, no matter how smelly, sticky, wet, messy, or gross. Did you know that before Greyson was born I'd never had to change one poopy diaper? I'd always get whoever else was with me to do it. And NOW I get concerned if he wakes up and takes more than 2 hours of awake time to poo. I've been peed on, puked on, and 2 weeks ago I was pooped on. And what worse, is I just wipe it off and keep going. When I was pooped on we were about to go to the store and didn't have time to change (we weren't home, we were visiting Aunt Amy in Phoenix) so I went to the store with a yellow spot on my jeans. Oh well. I guess when you see poo a million times a day it doesn't gross you out, PLUS it's just baby breastmilk poo, which is sooooo mild. I guess in a couple months when he starts eating human food (lol) it'll start getting gross. I'm sure I'll get used to that too.

We went to Phoenix about 2 weeks ago and it was Greyson's first plane ride, and he did great! He slept the whole flight there and even though he was awake on the flight home he only fussed once when he was hungry which was easily remedied. After all, aside from all the love what's a new mom if not a wonderfully warm and squishy and more importantly portable vending machine? But the trip was great, Greyson got to meet his AZ Grandparents who loved him and the rest of the AZ family. Almost all the little cousins were there (we missed our cousin from Utah, Henry) and a bunch of other family from Zack's Stepmom Pam. It was her surprise birthday weekend and it was so cool to meet and re-meet the lot of them! We have SEVEN little boys in the family. How cool! Including one who was also born earlier this year, Reid. I'm hoping he and Greyson will be good friends.

Also I've been trying my hand at being a SAHM (stay at home mom) and taking care of Greyson is easy, it's housework that sucks. But I get to spend every second with My Lil Hunny and I'm so grateful. Money's been tight, to say the least. For example we are paying this month's rent in installments (thanks to wonderful landlords). But if all goes as planned I will be working come October. I'm getting a business up and running called girlFriday, Durango. For those of you who don't know what a Girl Friday is, it's a "female assistant with a wide range of duties, a right-hand woman". So basically I'm going to go to different offices and do all their Etc-type work. Like filing, cleaning, errands, data-entry, and whatever else they need me to. The only catch is I'm bringing Greyson with me. Hopefully I'll get a few consistent gigs (that's all I need really). And who knows? Maybe this will just explode with interest and I can hire people. It's perfect for moms with kids they don't want to/can't afford to put into Day Care. Day Care sucks and it's super expensive. I believe it's good for older toddlers though to get socialized but it sucks for moms. So maybe in the future it could be an option, but right now it's totally not in the cards. I'll do what I have to to keep Greyson home/with me. So anyway, if you know of anyone who needs a little help, even if it's a one-time thing, let me know! ;)

Big news! I can fit into my old jeans!! It's so awesome! But I still feel chubby in my face :( but it could be my hair... I'm trying to grow it out but it's at a really odd length. If my Dad is reading this, Yes, I know there's only one way to remedy chubbiness.

And I'm struggling with a Halloween costume for Greyson. I want us to be related somethings. Like my original idea was he was going to be Gingy from Shrek and I'd be Fiona, but I can't find a gingerbread man outfit for the life of me and am having an even harder time finding warm fabric to make his costume. So I've quit on that idea. Then I thought maybe he could be Dale Jr and I could be his pit crew (I have a racergirl costume that I never wore, but I will have to modify it since I'd be walking around with my baby - it might be a little too.... "cute" for a mommy). Somebody gave him a Dale Jr outfit as a babygift.

Though admittedly we still don't know who it was! We can't figure it out! It just showed up one day with no note or anything or return address (it was delivered right from the company, so who knows...). So if it was you, come forward! I'd love to Thank You for it!

I think Greyson's going to be a righty! He's discovered that he can suck on his fists when his pacifier is MIA and he only sucks on his right one. We thought he might be a lefty since Zack and his mom both were leftys. I guess he still could be but right now all signs point to Right. He's also full of smiles, but they're super hard to catch on camera because the second he sees the camera he gets all serious and focused on what-the-heck-is-mom-pointing-at-me.

But it's so fun to see him smile reactively. He's <  > this close to laughing. I can't wait!

Well I guess that's all my news. Which is pretty good for not writing in 2 months. I'll try to be better at it.

Love!